Learned: about equanimity and eminence. That I may occur as a steady voice of reason. That my spirit has the back of those whose spirits may need to have a strong spirit having their back. That I don’t fully know the meaning of “Cybernetics.” 3.
Grateful for: the long-ago mostly-ending of my own negative feedback loop; Incantations; the ability to be in a difficult conversation for them and stay steady with my eye on their transformation; millions of inventions no longer in use. 3+1.
Accomplished (or weird things that happened): Made almost-decent Cinnamon Rolls; cleaned two pantry cupboards; loads of typing that falls under the category of “replies”; Listened to a 2-hour-long podcast featuring John Vervæke and Jordan Hall. Drove a car. 3.
Thinking about: A beautiful young man in Haiti who has been believing the negative feedback loop voice (until today). How I had big plans with a friend traveling to visit, and how a U.S. COVID-19 CDC proof of vaccination requirement has emptied all of our plans. How I have this drag-queeny thing under my breath at times that goes like, “They just can’t handle it!” 3.
LISTEN to this: (if you dare)
Reading/Listening right now: “How to Stand Up to a Dictator” by Maria Ressa, Nobel Peace Prize winner.
Seems (dropped down to here as I am collecting these instead of collaging):
like the things I do that involve giving money make little difference;
like I’m trapped in a network of conversations for remembering/forgetting;
like I have, of course, forgotten a lot of the practices that “made me what I am”;
like I’m going along fine, and then BAM, something happens;
like there isn’t any knowable way that “it is”;
like life comes at me hard and fast, and I always need a longer break than I get;
that my healthy choices still aren’t healthy for my situation;
like I used to be able to eat more than I can now.
3+.
New Habit(s)(dropped down to here as I am collecting these):
Black coffee for many weeks now and intentionally bringing JOY to it.
Going toward dairy-free, plant-based information for my body’s cells, allowing for some animal proteins as we change the pantry contents and absent-mindedly use butter instead of its substitutes.
When the tum feels queasy, can have a mellow, oat-milky fluffy cafe latte.
Increase capacities slowly, and they might stick.
Checking messages and replying on Emergent Commons.
Ecology of Practices: MOVED TO HERE: