Still among the planets and the stars. I wonder if this would be good on a coffee cup…
April 04, 2024—Two weeks ago, I was thinking of a handful of dudes, and now I’m only thinking of one of them. It’s amazing how quickly we can move through spaces with people. The barometric pressure went down to 29.something and I could feel the aches, but that’s all I really need to say about it.
Learned: that between March 31, 2023 and today, April 04, 2024, I received 2,129 emails containing the word “Election;” that you can make an event for people, invite them, have a few RSVP, and still, you get what you get; that The Governors of Utah and Maryland are actually pretty cool.
Grateful: for the people who show up; having a friend whose job is to cook for me; for the many responsible people who I know do something a little selfless for themselves once in a while. 3.
Accomplished: 30-minute exercise session in the pool on Saturday; walked around San Francisco with a friend on Monday and had a good time talking and being in a beautiful city; changing the things that I say about myself, starting now, regarding my history as a disabled person.
Thinking about: who I want to be for people, with my quiet limitations and sometimes-silent intentions.
I am creating a world where people live in natural harmony. My stand is that all of our histories are acknowledged, accepted, and completed. The outcome is that our human family has learned well to listen and love deeply and freely. We have moved beyond our inclinations toward strife with renewed motivation and expanded capability to create our lives. Together, we have achieved the peace and sufficiency we needed and always knew was possible.
I like the sound of this very long one:
Stabat Mater ~ Arvo Pärt. Get a coffee and play it loud in the morning. It will move you.
Reading/Listening/Watching right now: It’s still pretty random at this point. I like the calming sound of a 1940’s film noir crime drama, or the high production of a recent Korean crime drama. Also, Her.
Seemings From Before that still seems:
NEW: like I have most of it handled, at least what I can see to handle…
• like the top priority for myself and my health is not really a priority;
• like I am not free – like I’m very not free… when I catch the hardship of another and feel powerless to do anything about it;
• like sometimes, I have no choice—like to get through is to go through;
• like there is a realm of realms I don’t venture to experience;
• like no matter which endeavors I choose, I seem to add a level of complication nobody else would add for design’s sake;
• like some human-caused calamities are being considered acts of god, and some acts of God are being considered man-made;
• like I need to be being a particular way that is [still] invisible to me;
• upon realizing that “I am so loved,” it’s like I DON’T GO THERE;
• like I get thrown back, pulled back, or pushed back, even though I get there is no back;
• like low barometric pressure gives me extra inflammation;
• like there is now so much content churning out about every single thing that someone—anyone—could be interested in that it is pressing my “just give up” button.
A Quote About Reality :
“It is sometimes an appropriate response to reality to go insane.”
~ Philip K. Dick