Learned: They are either a mentor, a message, or a mirror. I have been a clearing for chaos. Time to collage something, tear-style. Seems like I have a job with lots of breaks, but no days off. the days are like a stress dream. Made chicken cordon blue burritos. When LG has an idea, he thinks it’s a good one and that we should do it, but will also listen to reason. (A creation/I think I might do that.) JS and I are friends.
3. The idea of a family retreat by the sea. The inner beauty of men in touch with their hearts. The inclusion of women and other genders. 3.
Seems: Like I am creating a space for back to the drawing board. Like so much has happened since the day I started this that I should call “False Start” and begin again. Like I can get how building a wall could seem like a good way to take care of yourself. 3.
The Three Questions: (that I forgot over the weekend)
Ask “What if I made this Easy?”
Ask “What about this is REHAB?”
Ask “What if I made this Important?”
Desirable Habits: (TOP THREE by Priority and for readability.)
✔︎Do things you normally wouldn’t do.
✔︎ Seek out and pursue opportunities for TRUE REHAB.
✔︎ Embrace community while putting self-care first.
Note: If you start a conversation, have a way to remember that it’s still active.
Thinking about: What my new freedom is and isn’t like.
On-purpose ways of being: Courageous, radical and confronting. Forgiveness and unconditional love in the background.
Accomplished: NB is set up to be able to take care of himself while I am away for the weekend (and beyond). Made all the members at the weekend voting members for the weekend. Wrote a good and well-received mission-statement even though it wasn’t adopted. Completed being Registrar. Facilitated new guy’s completion over the noisiness of the quiet dorm. Am now friends with LG in that unpredictable way you can’t see until love and affinity are restored.
Q: What is your inner idiot like?
My Answer: My inner idiot likes to turn everything into a joke. He wants things to be perfect, or as good as they can be under the unfortunate circumstances. He pities fools but is enamored with dorkiness, primitivity, and innocence. He thinks every idea he has is brilliant and feels he has the answers and the know-how to get any job done and done right! He can take any situation and make light of it while forgetting that it might seem different for others. My inner idiot doesn’t get how annoying he can be when adding his hilarious brilliance to something perfectly fine the way it is. He seemingly has no problem eating anything invented in a laboratory.
Video:https://youtu.be/GgaM5RjoddQ bonus: https://youtu.be/TRTkCHE1sS4
Watched: no time for it.
Still Reading:“Echoes of My Soul” by Robert K. Tanenbaum (my father’s kind of story).
Wanting to get back to reading:
“We Were Eight Years in Power – An American Tragedy” by Ta-Nehisi Coates, and “Hands of Life” by Julie Motz.