Learned: Having a loud neighbor is a source of irritation, no matter how many times I give it up! My brother has declared he needs a break from fighting cancer, now that he can eat again. I buy books to write in and don’t ever write in them. With no UPS and Fedex delivering, the world is a quieter place. Holidays like Arbor Day and Xmax can go by completely unnoticed if you ignore them long enough. Trimming 6″ off the lion’s mane takes my outlook from dirty hippie to well-groomed royalty! Cook was invited to a dinner, so truly on my own for the first time in years and rather loving it.
3. Holidays. Non-Holidays (i.e., days). Being okay with feeling less than limitless. 3.
Seems: Like when I type these days, two-letter words can come any old way, like I’m no longer paying attention to them. Like part of the rehab I must do includes raising my arms up above my shoulders with light weights. Like rehab will include new glasses. Like the window in the door to upstairs should shatter when the thing is slammed with such violent force. Like when others are trying to cope with their feelings of loss and loneliness, I delight in the peace and freedom of my own company.
The Three Questions: Ask “What if I made this Easy?” Ask “What if I made this Important?” Ask “What about this is REHAB?”
Habits:
✔︎Do things you normally wouldn’t do
✔︎ Almost do things you normally wouldn’t do
▲ Create Daily, regular reading time
✔︎ Have days where I don’t buy something
▲ Read this every day, modify and comment
▲ TRACK and Follow up on intended conversations
✔︎ Never wear uncomfortable shoes ▲ Don’t resist having your heart broken.
✔︎ Let go. Make it easy. <<<
✔︎ Lotion & ointment
✔︎ Seek out and pursue opportunities for TRUE REHAB.
✔︎ Find unseen self-portraits and feature them here.
✔︎ Look at what I wrote for new habits last time, copy and paste if you can’t remember
✔︎ Look at Game, calendar daily. DON’T Miss even ONE DAY!
✔︎ Become good at money, numbers and investing just because you can.
✔︎ Have breakfast of what you feel hungry for.
▲ Continue to kneel during the National Anthem until the police are sorted.
▲ Communicate Clearly what the protest is about.
▲ Note: If you start a conversation, have a way to remember that it’s still active. ✔︎ Embrace community from a distance when they’re all on holiday.
▲ Have MORE fun with pictures and words
Accomplished: Went for a pretty good walk on the 24th, gathering items to have that I wouldn’t ordinarily. Bought batteries for smoke alarms and water-proof bandages for things like blisters. Stopped and chatted with a neighbor I sometimes avoid and had a perfectly lovely time. Let my brother know that if it was truly too hard, that he didn’t have to keep fighting. Avoided the carols jingling through the floor by listening to and watching stuff kind of loud on the machines closest to my head. How for once, I got it right by not doing any more than I was committed to doing.
Thinking about: All the FB comments I haven’t had the strength to write. How much lighter I’ll feel when I get my weight down to 275. How I’ll need to let go of some habits and entitlements to lose a pound or two a week. Donut store: closed Christmas, open New Years. That’s what the sign said.
Q: Who has the most info about you and what you want to be done should you suddenly die?
My Answer: I’m not at all sure anyone has it well enough to string it all together, so it must be advance directive time. Maybe I’ll upload a copy here so you can find a copy should you ever need it.
Video: https://youtu.be/gwqaTPMxZeM
Watched: “David Copperfield” with Maggie Smith, who probably had everything to do with the success of Daniel Radcliffe.
Reading: “Echoes of My Soul” by Robert K. Tanenbaum (my father’s kind of story), “We Were Eight Years in Power – An American Tragedy” by Ta-Nehisi Coates, and “Hands of Life” by Julie Motz
“How we go, IT goes.”