Today (and yesterday), I go off-format, just because I can.
Learned: People right here in the U.S. live completely differently than I/we do and might even be surprised that we don’t know it. SS, my sister artist, is currently employed as an anti-racist activist, social practice gallery director. TC got low, so I helped.
The stuff DA captures that his kids say is gold, especially when he adds his and their mother’s lines. Reminds of Dennis the Menace. “Dispel” became word of the day for me and wrote the following as an affirmation to one of mine who needs to limit dabbling in the morass.
Leave all doubt under your pillow; your future clients are counting on you. The future you’re creating requires you to be a conversation for possibility. You have the training and the practice. Insist on being who you say you are. Dispel all doubt.
Rarely do I quote myself, but take the “me” out and I am simply sourcing source. I said that, and that, too, is sourcing source!
The voice of PB is a welcomed voice inside my head. I can see him sitting down next to homeless people in a soup kitchen, enrolling them in something being possible. I love hearing about GG. Seems like I’m angry that white people haven’t let the civil rights movement work yet when they’ve had ample time. My attempts at making new habits seem easier when I stop the daily grading myself on them.
Colonoscopy: The preparation was challenging, but “It went down.” Had I been a young hot-to-trot straight guy it might have been humiliating with all the super-lovely young women on the team. I fully expected it to be a complete torture, but the drugs knocked me out before they started the truly harrowing part. I also expected to wake up to some kind of situation to deal with, like cancer or a rare condition that made me eligible for a 5-year study if I gave up the prednisone. What I woke up to was to one male doctor wrestling with the tubes like it was a sea monster, saying, “I think I need him on his stomach.” If I were a straight man, it might have been humiliating. I said I heard that and painstakingly rolled my drugged body over. The situation felt distantly familiar. I heard the male doctor say, “This guy has the longest colon I’ve ever seen!” If I was a straight guy… but it was actually a moment of amazing freedom and pride. The result is that it all looked good and I don’t need to go back for ten years! No side-by-side chemo with my brother; no colostomy bag! I wonder how I’ll work this bit of good news into my next online dating profile.
Q: Ask me one.
Video: [This 10-minute film contains content that may be sensitive to some viewers, but it’s real.] https://vimeo.com/topicstories/rabbit-hunt
Other media: “Halt & Catch Fire” on Netflix