I don’t have a story about this statue of a lovely listening angel, but for a friend who experiences death around him: whatever you experience at the learning of a friend’s death, I feel you. How wonderful it must have been for you to have known them, and for them to have had you in their life; they got to have your love from the moment you met, whether you were in-touch or out-of-touch. I do get that it can occur as a surprise or even a drag when someone dies. You will miss them in the loveliest way possible.
Learned: There is much I can learn from other men. My ways are not like the ways of others. The past that’s complete is the “bad” past, but the past that’s judged as “good” lives on for comparison purposes. 3.
3. Struggle. Trust. Being asked to make eggs for breakfast to trick me into also eating eggs for breakfast since the pan is already dirty. 3.
Seems: Like I have the longest colon in the world. Like it’s hard to see a path to forgiveness when someone seems stuck being a maniacal narcissist. Like it’s exhausting work to care-give. 3.
The Three Questions:
Ask “What if I made this Easy?”
Ask “What about this is REHAB?”
Ask “What if I made this Important?”
Desirable Habits: (TOP THREE by Priority and for readability.)
✔︎Do things you normally wouldn’t do.
✔︎ Seek out and pursue opportunities for TRUE REHAB.
✔︎ Embrace community while putting self-care first.
Note: If you start a conversation, have a way to remember that it’s still active.
Thinking about: The surreal dreams I’ve been having. Do people with weird stress dreams become the insane? Is wanting to know a source of human suffering?
On-purpose ways of being: Courageous, radical and confronting. Forgiveness and unconditional love in the background.
Accomplished: Taken good care of NB and his sprained foot since last Tuesday.
Q: What is your inner idiot like?
My Answer: Forthcoming.
Video: https://vimeo.com/polledri/applepie
Watched: Binge-watched “Travelers” by Netflix, loved it; the guy from Will & Grace is in it, and he doesn’t seem gay in this, either. “Peaky Blinders” started. (2)
Still Reading:“Echoes of My Soul” by Robert K. Tanenbaum (my father’s kind of story). Wanting to get back to “We Were Eight Years in Power – An American Tragedy” by Ta-Nehisi Coates, and “Hands of Life” by Julie Motz. 3.