Is a doodle enough? I am officially engaged in a meaningful and satisfying way with creating imagery with AI tools.
January 13, 2023 – I missed promoting a Heart Circle that was supposed to happen this morning on Emergent Commons. I was deliciously asleep when the calendar event was announced. I never even noticed it. I realized later that I had already rescheduled it, but never moved it in my calendar. Not noticing this feels messy, so I am spending time with my calendar this morning.
I will need to start waking up earlier, Tu-Fri. I am asking for a new schedule with CS so I can sleep on Monday and wake up, talk, and get to the pool on Tuesday and Wednesday. I need to clear out Thursday mornings for the exercise class. I must do this for myself. I need to go at least twice a week to help tone and strengthen. If I go through March, I can start looking for a yoga class… walking isn’t enough, as if I actually do it. I need to be a transformed version of myself, like the guy who said, “I’m not going to go down like this” and ended up in yoga for four years, seriously strong and probably kind of sexy. I MUST make my physical health a priority, now that I’m certain I can regain much capability.
My last post HERE is still important; it’s a crowdfunding drive for a friend’s surgery in Haiti. It’s fine to have created a future of possibility, but I cannot forget that it’s the critical actions that move us ALL closer to achieving the outcomes we need and desire! UPDATE: He got the surgery and is healing! He says it feels very scratchy, but having it done is life-changing! He needed something good to happen. He has had a rough run. It’s time to turn his life around much like it is time for me to do the same.
I’m reposting this next part here until I get it into my repertoire: It’s my new place to stand—for Haiti, the world, and myself. It’s not far from what I already created long ago, but it is closer to what I mean when I say peace, freedom, forgiveness, aliveness and unconditional love are always available.
I am creating a world where people live in natural harmony.
My stand is that all of our histories are acknowledged, accepted, and completed.
The outcome is that our human family has learned well to listen and love deeply and freely. We have moved beyond our inclinations toward strife with renewed motivation and expanded capability to create our lives. Together, we have achieved the peace and sufficiency we needed and always knew was possible.
Learned: (or am reminded): the structure of a .json file; that if I look away from my calendar and let it be a mess, my life is experienced as messy; that Nic can bake bread.
Grateful: (edited and reposted from last time) for the people who have it to give and do, for those who don’t have it to give and do anyway, for those who don’t and said so, for those who consider it—and may still be considering it—and to those who are in their own circumstances and are beyond considering such things (I’ve been there, too.); my healthy and thriving octogenarian parents; potential. 3.
Accomplished: not so much, but only compared to the so much that was accomplished in December. I took my foot off the gas. I floated freely in my messy calendar and didn’t always know what was next. I accomplished hiatus.
Thinking about: I keep seeing myself sitting and making artwork for the Print on Demand market, but seldom do it. I like playing the AI image-making game but it’s like gambling with $10 a month. Lots of ideas come from it, but little pay-off. I keep seeing myself sitting and working on files, needing a new computer, and being overly absorbed in the process, and yet I don’t really feel products rolling out. I need a game to make it happen.
I like the sound of this one:
https://open.spotify.com/track/77Xd7aikO9NRmzC6ISXIvY?si=219831600d864bd0
Riopy
Reading/Listening/Watching right now: Riopy, who just does piano, but very well… I watched the movie Cold Mountain last night. A well-constructed story. Still with Barbra Streisand and her book about her life and work. She reads the audiobook as if she is talking (generating from as opposed to reading out loud). It’s a divine experience. I said to myself, “I’m glad I’m alive during this time to experience such a gift.”
Seems: like the top priority for myself and my health is not really a priority.
Seemings From Before:
• like I am not free – like I’m very not free… when I catch the hardship of another and feel powerless to do anything about it.
• like sometimes, I have no choice—like to get through is to go through;
• like there is a realm of realms I don’t venture to experience;
• like no matter which endeavors I choose, I seem to add a level of complication nobody else would add for design’s sake;
• like some human-caused calamities are being considered acts of god, and some acts of God are being considered man-made;
• like I need to be being a particular way that is invisible to me;
• upon realizing that “I am so loved,” it’s like I DON’T GO THERE;
• like I get thrown back, pulled back, or pushed back, even though I get there is no back;
• like low barometric pressure gives me extra inflammation;
• like there is now so much content churning out about every single thing that someone—anyone—could be interested in that it is pressing my “just give up” button.
Ecology of Practices: MOVED TO HERE:
A Quote About Bees:
“The bee is more honored than other animals, not because she labors, but because she labors for others.”
~ Saint John Chrysostom
