Month: December 2022

K: Daily Communication

Looking around for an image that was not done using AI tools, I found this one, which was sent to me by a dear friend of a print she had in her garage (that she wasn’t sure what to do with), I had the impression that the figure was looking for something…

Learned: about equanimity and eminence. That I may occur as a steady voice of reason. That my spirit has the back of those whose spirits may need to have a strong spirit having their back. That I don’t fully know the meaning of “Cybernetics.” 3.

Grateful for: the long-ago mostly-ending of my own negative feedback loop; Incantations; the ability to be in a difficult conversation for them and stay steady with my eye on their transformation; millions of inventions no longer in use. 3+1.

Accomplished (or weird things that happened): Made almost-decent Cinnamon Rolls; cleaned two pantry cupboards; loads of typing that falls under the category of “replies”; Listened to a 2-hour-long podcast featuring John Vervæke and Jordan Hall. Drove a car. 3.

Thinking about:  A beautiful young man in Haiti who has been believing the negative feedback loop voice (until today). How I had big plans with a friend traveling to visit, and how a U.S. COVID-19 CDC proof of vaccination requirement has emptied all of our plans. How I have this drag-queeny thing under my breath at times that goes like, “They just can’t handle it!” 3.

LISTEN to this: (if you dare)

Listen Loud while cleaning. Do not drift into your own thoughts. Stay with the conversation.

Reading/Listening right now: “How to Stand Up to a Dictator” by Maria Ressa, Nobel Peace Prize winner.

Seems (dropped down to here as I am collecting these instead of collaging):
like the things I do that involve giving money make little difference;
like I’m trapped in a network of conversations for remembering/forgetting;
like I have, of course, forgotten a lot of the practices that “made me what I am”;
like I’m going along fine, and then BAM, something happens;
like there isn’t any knowable way that “it is”;
like life comes at me hard and fast, and I always need a longer break than I get;
that my healthy choices still aren’t healthy for my situation;
like I used to be able to eat more than I can now.
3+.

New Habit(s)(dropped down to here as I am collecting these):

Black coffee for many weeks now and intentionally bringing JOY to it.

Going toward dairy-free, plant-based information for my body’s cells, allowing for some animal proteins as we change the pantry contents and absent-mindedly use butter instead of its substitutes.

When the tum feels queasy, can have a mellow, oat-milky fluffy cafe latte.

Increase capacities slowly, and they might stick. 

Checking messages and replying on Emergent Commons.

Ecology of Practices: MOVED TO HERE:

K: Daily Communication

I have enjoyed chemical reactions in the past like these; apart from the suffering, the chaos of a storm can yield a fascinating new landscape. I enjoy receiving a jewel-like result from such a prompt. The tool does fascinating things with textures and space that I may never have the patience to do myself. The above is a slightly retouched MidJourney image using the following prompt-craft: “botanical illustration, pistil and stamen, bouncing dots reacting to sound vibrations, gorgeous cerebral artwork by Go Nagai and Jean Arp, hyper-realistic, unreal render, octane render, shallow focus, drama cinematic lighting –no blur –ar 8:8 –v 4”

Learned: Oregon will be rolling out its new psychedelic therapies come January 2023. When it’s not a daily communication, I learn a lot but don’t write that I’ve learned it, then risk forgetting what I’ve learned forever. 2.

Grateful for: In-between spaces and mid-transitions; picked-up clues; glorious patches of unscheduled time; the times when I do remember what I’ve learned without having to refer to my notes. 3+1.

Seems: like I’m trapped in a network of conversations for remembering/forgetting; like I have, of course, forgotten a lot of the practices that “made me what I am”; like I’m going along fine, and then BAM, something happens; like there isn’t any knowable way that “it is”; like life comes at me hard and fast, and I always need a longer break than I get; that my healthy choices still aren’t healthy for my situation; like I used to be able to eat more than I can now. 3+.

New Habit(s): black coffee for many weeks now and recently intentionally bringing JOY to it. Going toward dairy-free, plant-based information for my body’s cells, allowing for some animal proteins as we change the pantry contents and absent-mindedly use butter instead of its substitutes. When the tum feels queasy, can have a mellow, oat-milky fluffy cafe latte. Increase capacities slowly, and they might stick. Checking messages on EC. 3+.

Accomplished (or weird things that happened): Said Curtis’ name and ran into him within one minute in Noe Valley; the words and structures for my Aunt Joyce’s 80th Birthday Zoom event; the words and structure for a 13-episode monthly event on Emergent Commons. 3.

Thinking about:  How my Daily Communication has not been very daily; Actually learning to speak and understand Spanish. Undergoing psychedelic therapies in Oregon as part of the training of the guide-sitters and therapists, even though I would prefer to “go off on my bicycle and trip!” 3.

Watch this: (if you dare) there are as many dietary advices available as there are digestive tracts. Some seem more likely correct than others, even if the news isn’t good. Sadhguru has an interesting take on the problem with The Western Diet.

I am always looking for clues.

Not really reading right now.

Ecology of Practices:
>I practice being the ways of being I say I want to be as a space. When I am not being those ways, I quickly get back to being those ways of being.

CORE: Committed to having space for it all (without having to remind myself that I am committed to having space for it all).

Being all like “I am Free to give, I receive more than I give.”
(ala good buddy Colleen S.)

Regular creation of “places to stand”
Attitudes that support standing there
Having a strong sense of who I am
Maintaining an empowered context.

>There are no circumstances that require me to lose my shit.

I remain playful! I may seem to gab and joke, but I also generate.
I listen for things to appear in the communication.
I listen for their greatness. (And it appears.)
>I listen for them being who they say they want to be
>I listen for them getting what they want.

Structural:
I use Google calendar to guide my passing through “time”
>I read my text messages first.
I use Alexa to announce what is happening next (in three minutes)
If the next thing that is happening with another person, I go toward the minute it is to start willing to be clear and complete from the beginning of the conversation.
I use PillPack for prescriptions to track whether I already took my meds.
I keep a pantry of many items to be used. (I am questioning this practice now.)
I be willing to examine my habits of consuming and, in time, make changes.