Learned: Some of the structures I have in place to keep me safe also keep me from being free. Amazon Fresh is not that different from Safeway delivery, better prices on some things I use regularly, but the worker is a freelance and needs to be tipped. I don’t mind tipping. I always get it back! I have a lost debit card. It is lost in my own house somewhere.
3: 121 reading on the glucometer. Grocery delivery day. Espresso powder. 3.
Seems: like I’d better get used to the idea that this is it and stop trying to make it some other way. Like people are disappointed when they realize I really won’t call without an appointment. Like when there is a significant setback, it rolls back all the good habits to defaults. When I watch only British TV and movies, my speaking changes dramatically, like I am learning the language.
Like our 10:00 a.m. wizard call might be interrupted by my grocery deliveries, but let’s have it anyway!
OLD New Questions: (with no Daily Communication, no asking of questions happens)
“What about this is Strength?”
“What about this is Beauty?”
“What about this is Strength AND Beauty?” (These, however, still live in the daily journaling of my soon-to-be-ending ReBootay! Game.)
I am loving every bit of life. (I shared this with JR who has traveled home to Vermont to be with her mum as she fades away under a cancerous morphine cloud. She got it.)
Thinking about: How writing has become an achey chore. How I’ve gone and done it again in regard to volunteering, now the interim web guy for the California Men’s Gatherings and having to sort it all out in response to a breakdown. How I have been putting off dealing with my bank because I think they have too strict policies and I won’t make it through the call about my own accounts without being sent looking for something I should have in front of me before making the call.
On-purpose ways of being: Intuitive, Radical and Enchanted, while forgiveness, peace, freedom and unconditional love are always available.
Accomplished: Threw out back (pulled muscle?) and recovered mostly but lost all momentum.
Q, again: So, what’s new?
My Answer: New again: NB is back on my couch after a boneopsy, and will go in for actual corrective surgery after that heals. Hence the massive grocery orders. Another thing is being the web guy for CMG – I have learned how to forward emails in Google G Suite with no help from any other human. I joined a gym and went twice, then the back went out, so we’ll be starting that game again (and again!).
Beauty: https://youtu.be/TBmZjOHrVJ0,
https://youtu.be/i235Y2HRksA
Listening to: The Kills, Ray LaMontagne
Watched: “How It Ends” on Netflix.
Reading: “Medical Medium: Secrets Behind Chronic and Mystery Illness and How to Finally Heal” by Anthony William – I’ve heard “Adrenal fatigue” for the first time as a thing I could look to repair.