Hey there, old friend!
I’ve been meaning to reach out for quite a while, but just didn’t have a good enough why until today. The why today is out of pure generosity and a bit of curiosity.
I’ve been wondering how you are getting on. We’re all aging, and for quite a stretch, I’d thought I was immune to it! Meanwhile, I’ve been dealing with health problems and pretending life is great—and it has been in many ways—but I’ve let my communication get pretty small and have been leaving a lot of people out, including you. Nothing was meant by it; I just needed to minimize stimulation and writing is very stimulating. It’s still like that.
After all those years of saying, “I don’t do stress” it just sort of started being there, like a chronic disease. At the same time, it seemed like the body just couldn’t do any of what it could do before. It’s like actual chronic fatigue, and it’s not all in my head, as much as I wish it were! I’ve also gained so much weight and my hair is turning white… I am looking like Santa these days and I am not kidding!
The trick in the moment has been to let go of comparing myself to my former configurations and to maintain an empowered context, no matter what is happening, about what’s possible. It helps that I have a team for that, made up of several beloved friends I’ve met along the way. We have weekly calls. Let me know if you want in on that; there’s always room for one more!
You have been an amazing contribution to so many. Thanks for demonstrating how freedom to shamelessly self-express could look, plus that reinventing yourself thing you do so well!
Let me know if you’re free for a coffee next time your in town. We can have it here at my place. The garden is looking beautiful these days!
Clay
“How we go, IT goes.”
