Month: June 2017

Learned: What the new habits would be that I have magically already started. When my mother, brother and I are together, there is no silence. The bumps come when they do; I don’t know what stress is. My brother laughs at the terrible, so we have that in common, too. My father walks around the house in the morning with the rotary shaver running against his face.

3. People caring and really being there for others. Flexibility. A well-stocked pantry. 3.

Seems: Like when I leave my house and stay someplace else, I end up doing a little better in some categories. Like I am most comfortable in the black shorts and black tank top combo uniform.

New Habit(s): Create and use a Sleep Ritual. Record intake. Plan Ahead. Healthy Fats. Smart Carbs. Lean Protein (at every meal). 5 colors a day. 80% full. Slow down. Make time. Breathe.

Accomplished: Started new game design in spite of all that’s going on around me. Brother started chemo. Accomplishment for me because I rose to the occasion in communication. When not at home, I shave a few numbers off the resting heart rate.

Thinking about: All the weird food I’ve eaten from my past, like Dennison’s Chili. What’s the magic of my new game, and what was the magic of the one that ends on Saturday?

Q: Are you experiencing becoming stronger/more masterful at giving it up (the significance) and being in the moment?

Mine: Perceived hardship calls to my heart. I be with the thoughts. A passing storm.

Video: https://youtu.be/3XW-XdDe6j0

Reading: If I remember, the same things as before. Not a time for reading.

Learned: When Dan “Replies All,” with his Daily Communication, his words post on my blog page. Parents are now getting interested in Amazon Prime for the TV options. The climate of central Oregon was good for me, but Alfalfa crops would be a problem. Amazing multiple mountain views from Redmond; Three Sisters, Bachelor, Jefferson and Hood, all in one skyline.

3. Uncles and Aunts and Cousins. Space to be human, offered and received. Cooler days. 3.

Seems: Like I’m never going to catch up on my Precision Nutrition coaching program. (But I will.) Like I’m going to open registration late because of reasons and excuses. Like Tuesday calls will interfere with walking and shopping, or vice-versa. Like it’s been days since I’ve seen anything but Caucasians, except on TV.

*New Habit(s): That new one I still don’t know. Plan Ahead. Healthy Fats. Smart Carbs. Lean Protein (at every meal). 5 colors a day. 80% full. Slow down. Make time. Breathe.

Accomplished: Amazon Prime and Firestick research. An extended family weekend where I reconnected with many, surfacy as it may be. A new way to braid my hair super tight that stays for days, even though it gets a bit like a rat tail after days two.

Thinking about: Walking around Safeway with my mother as exercise. Tomorrow, today is my day off. Feeling pestered by the thread of bad men’s group communication. Tamale Pie and refried beans. And Ice cream, but that’s not for me. I’m still playing.

Q: What if I made this easy? OR What is there to give up?

Mine: Yeah, giving it up constantly while experiencing relative peace, but conversations are easier to give up when there is no predicted negative impact to my ending responding to thoughts. I linger over things and say, “I should stop this before it goes too far.” What I want to give up is having to be this kind of watchdog. Let people screw up in communication/marketing. It will be good for them. I’m no longer the snark police.

Video: attached (I would need to UPGRADE for that.) https://youtu.be/0tNFCWuOC6k

Reading: Same as before, only not reading. Too much going on.

 

 

 

Fedora and Floppy. Hat Auction at 1:00 p.m. for our Vets.

Learned: Extended family has old listening for me as highly energetic super-artist. Thonger died the same day Dad bought her a Bday card. Uncle John is grappling with 92 probably being his last year, the heart’s worn out. Super-processed fruit-flavored yogurt with sugar is gross should be outlawed. J will do a game with me July—Oct.

3. Only gave 2 last time, but called it 3 with no remorse. That’s 1. That I caused myself to come to this annual event for the first time on its 21st happening. New experiences that normalize relationships. 3. Air Conditioner.

Seems: Like that big drag queen feeling lives in Oregon. Like I’ve been so busy that I couldn’t take very good care of myself. Like manually making art messes with the nervous system. Like I can relate to Ol’ Uncle John better than probably ever.

New Habit(s): That new one I still don’t know yet. Plan Ahead. Healthy Fats. Smart Carbs. Lean Protein (at every meal). 5 colors a day. 80% full. Slow down. Make time. Breathe.

Accomplished: A big 2-sided hand-made sign to wrap John’s “EGGS” sign announcing the Fundraiser Hat Auction For Our Vets. Donation receipts beyond their wildest imaginings. A shower. Summer fake flower arrangement for in front of Aunt Judy’s Fireplace. Re-braided four-day-old hair.

Thinking about: Not walking so much.

Q: Still given it up or renewed suffering?

My A to “Completable easiest”: I’m thinking it’s sugar, but I dunno about easiest. Living out of bed maybe? Sometimes questions I ask you are designed to be answered by you. Okay, got it. Black Cherry Flavored Arrowhead bubbly water. They’re evil.

Video: https://youtu.be/yy7dg-6gO7k

Reading: Same, no progress, heavily social time & graphics production for aunt’s BBQ.

 

Learned: Getting the right help makes a difference. Attempting to do it all alone attracts opportunity for injury. My brother is not especially afraid and has only changed in stature. Chemo starts next Wednesday. Things have changed around here in that the house is full of cream. Virgin America must have a note on my file, they were over-the-top great with me. I packed so many t-shirts for my brother that I forgot to pack some for me. Traffic in Portland and connecting areas is a massive problem now, but power to create tricks still work on it.3. On the road again. The ability to be with Oregon rednecks. 3.Seems: Like it is hard to write this stuff and have calls in the family compound, which seemed larger with one less person. That’s a seeming in a seeming. Like I probably won’t have the energy to see a lot of friends next week.

New Habit(s): (that new one I may never get to) + Plan Ahead. Healthy Fats. Smart Carbs. Lean Protein (at every meal). 5 colors a day. 80% full. Slow down. Make time. Breathe.

Accomplished: Made it from my house to my parent’s house like a regular person. Significantly dehoarded my bedroom, even went into the closet, which has been buried for years. Slept seven hours.

Thinking about: How Oregon has developed in the 25 years since I left. Being away when I just got here. Ways to stay entertained and present to being a party to my own abduction.Q: Is there something sucking the joy out of life that can be quickly transformed or completed?

Mine: Ask me again later.

Video: Perfume ad to the max https://youtu.be/fJwE8edYEyw

Reading: same as before

 

Learned: Top Mac apps for 2017, many of which I already have. The foot doctor (yes, me, too) was not as gross as I thought it would be. I can post to my new blog by email at the same time I send this to you and other WordPressy tricks. The number of my brother’s cancer is 4, which adds a bunch of significance, but everyone stays optimistic. He’s in a study now, not just regular treatment. I walked back from the Hospital (mine, not my brother’s) today and didn’t buy anything I shouldn’t eat. Fruit, though, which could fall under accomplishments. I have very high arches.

3. For gaining insights into the unworkability of how I operate. For traveling, and not just for me. A cooler day than yesterday. 3.

Seems: Like I am having extra ankle problems now. Like the new habits of curly quotes and apostrophes is easy, but a hassle. Like I’ve let go of some of the habits I have been building this year, especially when I just copy and paste the below.

New Habits: Missing one, behind on lessons. Plan ahead. Healthy oils. Smart Carbs. Five colors a day. A palm-sized amount of lean protein at every meal. 80% full. Slow down. Breathe.

Thinking about: Travel, being exhausted by travel, being uncomfortable, legs hurting, the airport hurting, being disorganized, having to build and open registration for the summer gathering during my family vacation, my brother all wasted away, what clothes I can take for him, How I can give him great upgrades for his health but it’s all spendy, how I want to shave my head in solidarity, only he might not do it.

Q: Apply this question to something you’re making hard: “What If I made this easy?” Report back. I will report back, too.

View: https://youtu.be/drRQvzQLPxo

Reading: NYT & “The Bell Jar” by Sylvia Plath (audible versions)

The Judgement of Paris.

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Learned: (three or more things you’ve recently learned)

3. (three things for which you’re grateful.) 3.

Seems: (…Like bla bla bla. The world’s not always what it seems.)

New Habits: (List three of them here. Every time.)

Thinking about: (What your thoughts are currently about.)

Accomplishments: (What happened that you wanted to have happened.)

Q: (A question for others to answer.)

Video: (A link to a video, so other can see something they never would see or hear some music they wouldn’t find on their own.)

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