Learned: 32″ Flat Screen was the right size for the front room. I can still do manly stuff like get down on the ground and relight hot water heater pilot lights. Many days go by, and here we are. Spills discombobulate me. I am still used by some version of “I know they won’t like me, so why bother.” By some, I could be perceived as a “pot-bellied, avuncular, classic elder-hippy who gets stoned and talks about Allan Watts and Phish.” Too many projects half done = a hot mess. A broken bottle of ferric chloride = chemical spill.
3. The ability to make something or someone neither wrong nor right. The ability to validate any point of view whilst still wanting to lock people up who have their minds on harming others. 3.
Seems: Like Dan & Lil’ are still on vacation. Like I am way busier than I should be, and doing things I hadn’t planned on. Like it would be easier to not have aspirations that don’t come ready-made. Like I’m on edge, moody, using curse words out of frustration.
New Habit(s) that can return if I be determined, enthusiastic and committed: Take a break (and stuck there) Only drinking things with zero calories. Create and use a Sleep Ritual. Record intake. Plan Ahead. Healthy Fats. Smart Carbs. Lean Protein (at every meal). 5 colors a day. 80% full. Slow down. Make time. Breathe.
Accomplished: Slept 7.5 hours by drinking golden milk in the wee hours. Installed watchable TV in the front room. Watered and fertilized deck garden. Relit pilot lights. Cleaned off that kitchen shelf where the other shelf needs to go. Started the registration game (and things are moving). Various other accomplishments.
Thinking about: Uncomplicating. How to get a break from myself without it being a lay-down fanatic. A new POC certification program for white people. It costs money. It’s a program. A white person can get trained to be a safe haven, an ally, and can wear a badge. The badge has a number. You can flunk out, so then, no badge. Doing a video or audio instruction for the future of inviting men to come to a CMG, since never does the question get asked, “would you like to go? Would you like to register for the gathering?”
Q: That shoe question, again. I want pictures!
Video: https://youtu.be/CK1Px_JHGww?list=RDEDhkxMvpnEE
Reading: This Alan Watts Quote: “Things are as they are. Looking out into the universe at night, we make no comparisons between right and wrong stars, nor between well and badly arranged constellations.”