Learned: Dan’s in flood stage with the Springpot product. Larry is a hack or a least that’s my listening of him. Dave jumped off a bridge, leaving everything in order for a friend to access everything in his absence. That M&D still have little mini-arguments, but clean it up pretty fast. That D hates the additional clutter, and that he can give it up all by himself.
3. The ability to still do good work when I’m in the mood to provide inferior work. The drugs they give these days to help people deal with the side-effects of chemo. A day open to do what must be done. 3.
Seems: like I should clean it up with Larry, but I’d rather just dump him for being a big negative poo-head. Like the CMG is only good for a momentary feel good; that it cannot fulfill its mission because it attracts men with super egos (including me) to work on the board. Like I have 23 hours left to work on the Summer registration, and I want to punish everyone (the not-team) but not being ready instead of quitting. Like part of the conditioning for men makes it impossible for them to ask for help or live with themselves if they fail financially. Like I’m right and it’s true that I’m right. Like I have to give up my stand for quality to get along peacefully with poo-heads.
New Habit(s): Create and use a Sleep Ritual. Record intake. Plan Ahead. Healthy Fats. Smart Carbs. Lean Protein (at every meal). 5 colors a day. 80% full. Slow down. Make time. Breathe.
Accomplished: Hulled 12 pints of strawberries. Ran around a HUGE Safeway with a little cart for exercise and saved my mother $30. Wrote a bunch of hostile emails but didn’t send them. Looked at <10,000 cool bad drawings on 10000baddrawings.com.
Thinking about: How I won’t be able to walk today or do anything else until my work is done. How I want to complain about the never-ending stream of idiots I have to work with in my volunteer position. That I AM complaining about it and it’s in my space, and what keeps it there is me caring that things be less tacky and dysfunctional.
Q: Are you tolerating something (or someone) in your life instead of accepting that the best solution may be to sever ties?
Mine: Why yes, it seems I am! I feel like I cannot leave my volunteer post unless I’m willing to pass it back to a dear friend who I don’t what to have to do it. It’s a problem. I feel the need to sign up for a program so I could give it up quicker.
Video: https://youtu.be/WODx5T5OKkE
Reading: hostile emails I’ll never send, and this one. Room Upgrade descriptions.